Underlying purpose

2010-10-10T13:01:00.000-07:00

my hatred for myself mounted to the height of mt everest

this cant do

im losing myself

babeh dont leave me dangling in between

come to think about it

u didnt hurt me

i am the one that hurt myself

dont come and stick with me

just because u feel guilty

just because u know i am sincere towards u

just because u just get used to me after 3 years

dont do that

because if the reason is other than u love me

if u dont disarm

i will disarm and hurt u like nothing u ever felt before

i rather u hate me for the rest of ur life

than........

ur not responsible for my hurt

my wound

my shattered world

so theres no need to heal me and take responsibility

after ur exams we will see how

till 1st of november

for now

i will be by ur side

giving u whatever that is left in me

until i have nothing left to give

then i shall give my life to u

and what is remaining of me

is not a person u wanna know or wanna see

a person that is even worst than who i used to be

2010-10-07T13:05:00.000-07:00

if tomorrow i were to discover if i had any kind of serious illness

cancer

heart attack

or whatever shit that is existing

i am ready to die

life has not much meaning for me

so im better off dead

and if i dont sleep today

i will be going through 2 days with only 2 hours of sleep

i predict i wont be sleeping till sunday

my 2 best friends u guys have been with my since i was 14

please make me feel better

please?

until sunday

because monday i will become a new person

i will start on my diet

and exercise

at least for once in my life

i want to be shallow

i want people to like me for my body

my muscles

shallow nel welcome to the new world

2010-09-15T11:26:00.000-07:00

so much pain
i dont want this feeling
my scars are deep
and cannot be healed

i am forever wounded
forever in pain
i cant recover
i am too hurt

why would you cause me this
how could you even do this to me
what are you doing to me
what did i do to you

the only thing that i've ever done.................
is
to love you....

hair transformation

2010-05-20T13:55:00.000-07:00

meet mr hair when he was a virgin......

meet mr hair after dying....

2010-05-18T13:50:00.001-07:00

im down with a fever
and now its 4.50am
and i need to wake up at 6am for my 8am class
seriously
fuck
my life

im feelings so.....
empty
zombie dead
a leopard never change its spots

2010-05-11T13:54:00.000-07:00

its 4.55am and i still cant sleep
i have been rolling around on my bed
trying to sleep
trying to set my mind at ease
but i still cant do it
maybe im already missing you
maybe im worried
will you reach there safely
is there anyone that will take care of you
will you think of me
will you miss me
but one thing i dont hae to worry about is
will you eat properly
cause i know eating
is your favourite thing to do
haha
its only been less than 12 hours
but im already love sick
how am i gonna survive 4 whole days
without hearing your voice
you know you're the only one in my heart
lil girl,bogoshipoyo
saranghae

2010-04-11T10:03:00.000-07:00

ok ladies and gentlemen

as u can see todays post is about my lil cute finger
so here goes the story

last thursday i was working

and i was cutting the garnish

and i was a little bit distracted(dont ask me why)

and so i cut my finger without realising

until i saw blood and the pain mounted

trust me i lost alot of blood

and everybody wanted to become doctors to try to stop the bleeding

1st they poured whisky on the wound

FUCKING PAIN

2nd they poured gin

FUCK THE FUCK PAINNNNNNNNNNNN CBBBBBBBBBB

3rd they ask me to rinse through running water

FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKK THEIRRRRRRRRRR LIVESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

i was in pain until i almost fainted or something pls

i bled for like almost 2 hours cause the bleeding wont stop

but they took care of me la

Irene was taking care of me all the way

the people there are nice la

they take care of their staff well

haha

and so she fix my wound up and i continue working

the next day i woke up it was still bleeding

so i went to the poly

and they refered me to the hospital for some stitches

and so i went to changi hospital

and the doctor said they couldnt stithc me up cause there's no skin to stitch

and the dr laughed at me cause that part of my skin was literally GONE

oh my fucking shit

i cut away my skin

nice one nel

so all they did was to cover the wound

and tmr which is monday i have to go for dressing at bedok poly

wtf

waste my money sia

so after the covering of wound they gave me this injection

i dunno what the bloody name of the injection

but fuck

its an injection when someone gets into an accident

and can last for 5 years

-_-''''''

i got into an accident by cutting away my skin

thanks ahhh

andddd

hospital is fucking expensive sia

i told them to send the bill to my house

haha

but timbre is good la

i can claim the expenses

but since i didnt pay for it

they can pay for meeee heeee

so far i have been working in timbre for 2 weeks

so far so good

i feel comfortable within the 1st few days

now after working there for 2 weeks

i feel belonged to the family

now instead of dreading work

i look forward to it

i have no problem working everyday

its because everytime i go there and work

i learn new things

i have fun

and i get fitter because every single day

i have to carry at least 3 barrels of beer

1 barrel = 50kg

3 barrels = 5o x 3= 150kg

but during friday and saturday i can carry up to 6 barrels

6 barrels= 50x6= 300kg

see!!!!!

haha no wonder my muscles are now geting harder

and plus i have to climb the stairs of forever

i think im gettin fitter =))

WOHH

i can really see my future with timbre

im gonna work there for another 2 years

or more

2010-03-23T13:10:00.000-07:00

im feeling very happy
and relieved that i got a job
where is it?
you wouldnt believe me
i applied at timbre@arts house
but timbre@old school accepted me

went for 2nd interview today

and i got in straight away!WOOHH

finally today 24 March i can officially declare im gonna be a bartender

for real

well because im girl

so im a barmaid(term used for a girl bartender)

i know its gonna be hard

i will get scoldings and criticising and maybe some people wont even like me at 1st

but im all ready to take on anything

ready to learn

ready to take my 1st step into memorising 1001 cocktails

HERE

GOOOO

sorry dxo

you didnt cherish me

you took advantage of me

and still after working for MORE than 1 year

the management still sucks

nothing changed

look at the previous team

where did all the best servers and bartenders go?

somewhere where they will feel appreciated and given a chance to show their potential

i am what you have left of the best

but yet you didnt cherish me either

its time for the last of the best to go

look at the team now

full of dunk

and you say that we need to buck up

look at yourself 1st as a management person

try to question yourself

if one or two that joins the team quit and doesnt stay long

nothing is wrong

but if ALL of the people including me

left after afew months or some even weeks

sad isnt it?

something is wrong about your leadership

but u are ignorant about it

how pathetic

i will miss every single one of them

i've been spending 1 year and exactly 2 months with them

but one person i will never ever miss

is you.i hope karma gets u back at what u've done to people

2010-03-12T11:14:00.000-08:00

been real busy lately
well not really
but busy

the topic im gonna talk about is quite sensitive
so im gonna use a few examples
to potray my opinions and feelings

Haven't you realized that the authorities in Singapore are

useless? From the SPF to the Courts, they are just wayanging

their duties, changing the laws until they need not do anything. You can get away with anything in Singapore, cos

why? They just don't care, they sold us to the dogs, and

foreigners, time to pack your bags to move overseas!

Don't waste time on Singapore football team. They cannot

make it. Don't blame the coach! He has no other choices, the

good one Singapore cannot afford to pay -only left the lousy

ones. What can he do? No parent in the sound mind would like

their children to be footballer in Singapore. Study and earn

money to feed family.

bloody ffuucckkiinngg foreigners again.

serve you idiots right for voting in traitors that allow these
foreigners to invade and mess up our soceity n community.

ok thats all for now

i can feel the tention already

copyrights to stomp

all these comments were taken from stomp.com.sg

2010-02-23T05:11:00.000-08:00

reminder to self: celebrate valentines day early/earlier

things are so damn expensive during vday

its price is crazily doubled can or something

so me and baby girl went serenity

dine by the river

nice view

can see the Resort World

again as usual

we are always the youngest couple there

the service is excellent

especially this guy (fuck i forgot the name)

please do tip them accordingly when u go there HAHA

for starters we ate chicken wings

very nicely done

delicious sauce

and the wings are big

finger lickin' good

main dish was the paella

i TOTALLY LOVE IT

so much flavour and taste

hmmm YUMMEHH

but lil girl doesnt like it

because she feels confused??

haha

for her a strawberry virgin magarita

for me half a pint of heineken

the settings were romantic

as the day grows darkerthe more pack serenity was

by the time we left at around 10

all the tables were filled

i wouldnt mind going there

but its the price that stops me

expensive place =(

now is the exam period

marketing is history

so is econs

thursday is accounting

i hope i can do well

because i have been concentrating on POA

after that gonna go out with those Noobs

plan for the chalet

since its gonna be the last time we gonna see each other(so called)

then im gonna meet the only love of my life

for now,its back to accounting

i know it sounds stupid

im living my life for you

and for future children

let them laugh at me

let them mock me

at least i have a goal in life

at least i am loved by u

at least i am trying to be a better person

i will be a good human

a good husband

a good father

a good grandfather

i swear

2010-02-11T09:50:00.000-08:00

OMG
exams is next friday
Marketing please be my friend
and let me score A,ok?

and i realised
i study better in pieces of stapled notes
rather than books
and lecture notes all binded up together
like
FML seriously
nvm
make it best out of this 1 week
wooooottsssss

i need to start exercising seriously
need to look good
build and tone muscles
badminton
tennis
squash
netball
basketball
volleyball
table tennis
swimming
gym
rugby/touch rugby
kickboxing/muay thai
etcetc...
ANYONE??????

2010-02-09T09:38:00.000-08:00

10 Feb 2010 01.34AM
To:Sarah Lee

Dear.can i ask u 1 last qn?

do u tink we can last?do u
tink we can build a future together?

10 Feb 2010 01.33AM

From:Sarah Lee

I want to build a future with you

no matter how tough it would be.

=))))

now i remember

y i love u so much

y u are my soul

my heartbeat

my every breath that i take

if 1 day u were to stop loving me

i wont die

i wont commit suicide

but

i will ruin my life

i cant do it w/o u beh

2010-02-08T09:08:00.000-08:00

HAPPYHAPPY

2010-02-07T11:01:00.000-08:00

A strangled smile fell from your face
It kills me that I hurt you this way
The worst part is that I didn't even know
Now there's a million reasons for you to go
But if you can find a reason to stay

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
Believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes

She said "If we're gonna make this work
You gotta let me inside even though it hurts
Don't hide the broken parts that I need to see"
She said "Like it or not it's the way it's gotta be
You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me"

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
And give me a break
I'll keep us together, I know you deserve much better

But remember the time I told you the way that I felt
That I'd be lost without you and never find myself
Let's hold onto each other above everything else
Start over, start over

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
and believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes

2010-01-30T14:15:00.000-08:00

ok.todays post gonna be a long one.
here
it
goes
........................

in this millenium its very sad to see
the value of woman deplete to a whole zero
what i mean by that is
woman have no value nowadays
before any knife start flying at me
or before i receive a tight slap
let me finish writing out my thoughts 1st
i am not siding the females
nor am i against the males
i am a NEUTRAL party
dont come and try to deny this fact
it is true
and girls dont come and say
it is because i mix with the wrong company
or whatever
because u are a girl
guy wont bitch infront of u
wen guys bitch,its worst than girls
u havent seen they way guys DEGRADE girls
right infront of me(hey im a girl too OK)
the way they treat u like a piece
of SHIT
or like an object
they play wen they want it
they bet on it
treat it as a trophy
and they throw wen they get bored of it
they speak as if
ur cheap,so cheap
that even a 50cents coffee
is MUCH MORE expensive than u
the way they grade u in bed
the way they say
"BRO I TOLD THE GIRL
I DONT WANT HER
CAUSE MY FWEN TOLD ME
HER CB SO LOOSE
NO STEAM
I ONLY TAKE 1ST CLASS
I DONT TAKE 2ND HAND GOODS"
and i totally am COOL about it
because why?
girls look at urself
the way u dress
so skimpy
so revealing
cleavage here cleavage there
cleavage everywhere
yes sure be proud
of the assets u have
flaunt it
but not too much
or rather,dont purposely
go and cheapen urself
attracting the wrong attention

look at u girls
think its so cool to be the only girl
in a big group
cheapen urself
do whatever guys tell u to do
flirt here flirt there
ok wen i say u girls
it only applies to MAJIORITY
not ALL
the way u act
especially at clubs
especially wen u get drunk
vomit all over,not concsious
wearing a mini dress
legs wide open,underwear seen
bend over
breasts gonna spill out any second
and when u get raped
guys are to blame for?
NO
YOU are to blame for

ADMIT IT
u sleep around
with him
then his friend
then his friend
and then u say
I DUNNO WHY GUYS
THINK IM SO CHEAP
IM NOT LOR
yes u are miss
because guys are good
they share good stuff
easy to get
fuck then throw

fighting for a guys attention
wearing so short
so low
throw urself to him
fight who is better in bed
for what?
so that the guy
can kill 2 birds with 1 stone?

ok fine
boyfriend cheats on u
ur upset
u blame the guy
and blame the girl
for being cheap
but
did u ever think
maybe the problem lies
with urself,not him?
why?
because maybe u didnt satisfy him
or maybe
ur just too busy for him
guys have a higher sexual drive
than females
u cant change it
its in the genes
even gays have it
they are born like that
they think with the dick
not with the head
that is a fact
u CANT change
so get over it

yes i agree that guys are better than girls
in overall
they have to be
they have to be the breadwinner
they are the one
that leads the family
they are the figurehead
they are the MAN
u have no idea
a responsibility
of a son
a boyfriend
a father
they have to have a sense of EGO
if not
u girls will say
they have no balls
if too much ego
he's a jerk
so girls,what do u want?

so in every situation
dont blame it on the guys ok
blame it on urself
for destroying the value
of woman
pure
innocent
prestigous woman
all gone

u have NO idea
how valueless woman are
no FREAKING idea

for me
i cant change the fact
that i am a girl/butch
with breasts
with a vagina
i dont care
what the other butches think
or have a status to follow
whatever reason other ppl become
a butch
doesnt concern me
they hate guys
thats their problem
i dont hate guys
i love man
i look up to MAN
not boy,but MAN
i wanna one of them
i feel as though
im actually a guy
stuck in a girls body
nobody teach me to be rough
or tomboy
im born like that
im from a mixed sch all my life
im very exposed
i met alot of people
u name it
any country
any race
any gender
gays
lesbians
bisexual
even those who fuck animals
YES
ive met them
girls respect me
i earn the respect of guys
obviously they will play around with me
EH COME I MAKE U STRAIGHT
I FUCK U
but they know their limits
because i make known to them
MY limits
dont compare me with other
butches
because im not the same as them
they HATE guys
i DONT

ok thats all i wanna say
HAHA
babeh i know ur gonna be angry with me
after reading this entry
because the time i spend
could be spend on studying
im sorry
i will make up the time for it
i just need to vent it out
and i dont wanna disturb u
cause ur sleeping

people ask me
WHERE U WANNA GO AFTER POLY
i told them
i wanna go to nus
and they laugh
actually its good that they laugh
and they laugh harder
when they ask me why i wanna go there
i said
BECAUSE I WANNA STAY IN NUS HOSTEL
SO THAT I MY GF CAN STAY WITH ME
AND WE CAN STUDY TOGETHER
AND DO THINGS TOGETHER
I WANNA LIVE WITH HER
its time i take up the responsibility
and mature
time to study nel
no time to waste
because my aim
is the star
on the star
is 4.0
i love u babeh
i always will

2010-01-25T19:39:00.000-08:00

i
feel
like dying
slowly
painfully

FML
seriously

2010-01-12T09:15:00.000-08:00

saw senior minister
MR LEE KUAN YEW
yesterday while working
he inspired me
wanted to shake his hands
but then....
skali the body guard break my hand or what
haha

..............
if only he gave me the lexus car
i can sell if off and get some cash
=((

failure always a failure

2010-01-04T11:39:00.000-08:00

when
will i have the money
to buy a few flair bottle
and practise at home
haissssss

jd is my favourite

whisky

bourbon

i can drink it in everyway

on the rocks

with coke

neat

or even gulp down the whole bottle

=))

hehe

jack daniels collectors edition

i have yet to try single barrel

its stronger

and more concentrated than the normal

I WANT!

there's also gentlemen jack

abit smoother than the normal

mmmmm

anyone?

get me all 3

pleaseeee??????

2010-01-02T14:37:00.001-08:00

is it
considered
cRaZy
if someone(me)
kiss the
macbook screen
with the
picture
of her(lil girl)
being displayed
?

ok
i think im
cRaZy
=)))))
hee

2009-12-26T23:43:00.000-08:00

im back in singapore...heee
since like 25 dec 4.30pm
went back home
slept a lil then went work
work sucks
my pay still havent come
sucks cocks
today supposed to have dxo gathering
but im sick and penniless and no mood
meimei not going also

but it doesnt matter
cause im gonna fetch my baby girl from work
HEHE
hang on babeh
hubby fecthing u from work =))))))))

blue rose and sunflower are perfect
dont u think so babeh?
i only found 1 picture of this
u know it means what?
theres only 1 couple of us
in this universe
i love you

2009-12-21T06:36:00.000-08:00

i cant believe it
its tomorrow
THE DAY HAS COME
im not dreaming right......
*slap* Ouch
no no im not dreaming

bangkok babey
here
i
comeeeee

<33333333333333

2009-12-16T10:02:00.000-08:00

i am so so so so so

SAD

i need to find serenity

i need to find that place

before i turn crazy

i promise i will return home sefely

in 1 piece

the most beautiful sunset

are the ones i see in ur eyes

but sadly

it doesnt belong to me anymore

and so i walk and walk

until i cant see the sunset anymore

water filling my lungs

2009-12-16T09:16:00.000-08:00

how i am feeling NOW:

FUCKING TIRED

FUCKING HUNGRY

FUCKING ANGRY

FUCKING PISSED

FUCKING HURT

FUCKING MESSED UP

FUCKED UP

I FEEL LIKE FUCK CHIBAI

always the same thing

always the same guy

always him him him him

fuck

then im ur what sia

piece of shit is it

am i not worthy of you

i have no credit worthiness is it

every SINGLE time i try to forget

things have to bring it up AGAIN

AGAIN and AGAIN and AGAIN

go la ok go la i have no value right

go ahead and be with him

he makes u happy wad

makes u smile and laugh

its ok if u dont want me anymore

i know im not smart

im stupider than u

indeed im very stupid

study study also very stupid

i know im not good looking

so dark

so fat

so flabby

so ugly

i know im not rich

so poor

no money

u even have to pay for me

im the poorest in the UNIVERSE

so the conclusion is

u are too good for me hor

yeah la i this piece of shit

no use

no value

no one wants me

never mind la

i will just fade into thin air

u just tell me u dont want me

just say the word

and ur wish is granted

dont treat me this way

dont make me feel this way

i rather leave u than having to face this feeling

do u know how it feels

do you know the word BETRAYED

YOU

HAVE

FUCKING

IDEA

HOW

FEELS

2009-12-13T07:49:00.000-08:00

tmr last paper for ica is stats

my brain cant comprehend any of the info
HELP ME
im very very very sick
body breaking down
oh please dont break down on wed
ive been looking forward to it

things i need to do
no1. collect passport on thur AM
no2. change baht money
no3. erm...shit i forgot but i know theres a no 3
no4. SECRET(hehehehehehehe)

i need to reformat my lappy
windows is giving me problems
windows sucks man
everyone should get a macatosh

not gonna see lil girl till thur
sob sob
im more sick now
love sick

2009-12-09T22:01:00.001-08:00

im gonna flunk my ACCESS

2009-12-09T12:04:00.000-08:00

woke up at 3
now its 4 and i still cant fall aslp
dammit
access ica2 at 9am
and im still awake now
hooray
my head hurts
massage anyone?
sf
af
f

f
f
sf

phhttwwww
fish i cant sleep

2009-12-07T08:11:00.000-08:00

nothing much to say for now
stupid flu jab got me sick all over
2 days mc
but gonna go for access ica tmr
then collect passport
then go work
for now just enjoy photos of the vampire girl
i didnt know she was pretty

alice looks like this in twilight and new moon

pretty uh??she should have long hair in eclipse

twilight coming soon in june 2010

14 more days to bkk
pls pls dont screw it up
let it be a memorable one
at least if its the last

2009-12-05T13:47:00.000-08:00

think twice think thrice think more than 4 times
but the tickets kept me from doing it
the whole world knows im crazy about u
but
theres nth to talk abt me anyway
im not cute
not good looking
not smart
not rich
just a stupid fat useless bum
maybe its natural for u to react that way
or maybe
thast just a fact that lies deep inside
and actually i should pay attn to facts
maybe we are blinded
maybe we should take a break
maybe after all
after so long
u need space
u need space to grow up
yourself
but then where do i stand
maybe i should dissolve into thin air
i always wanted to go to the moon
i still believe its made of cheese
maybe i can eat the cheese there to stay alive

2009-12-03T09:21:00.000-08:00

school today was ok,quite fun
hui tians 2oth birthday
old aunty already HAHA
bought her a cake
i think she likes it,i THINK

and dr chia said quite afew people fail eff writing
shit hope im not 1 of them
cause the paper was quite hard
*prays HARD*

didnt meet my baby girl today
cause i had to rush for work
supposed to start at 6
went there late
started at 6.45
short of manpower
thanks uh J
put me upstairs
cause all VIPs and bosses
all scared then i this idiot have to go up
ham was the bartender upstairs
then downstairs not enough bartenders
and he went down leaving me ALONE
so almost throughout the time
i was the bartender serving the VIPs
yeah same old shit again
some nice people,some stuck up ones
and please dont insult my knowledge ok
its not as if a BARTENDER doesnt know wads a SCREWDRIVER screw u
i dont mind if he did that to me
maybe i look young and INexperience
but he did that to ham
HAHAHAHAHAHA
he was so insulted he curse and almost wanna spit into the drink
poeple please la dont try to act smart
bartenders are bartenders
if not,why are we even bartenders
and i hate people who suck up to bartenders
come one,we get that all the time
what makes you think we'll entertain you
and then when you go back to your seats
you treat the servers like shit
what is this
they deserve the same respect as us
i started from a server too
we know our stuff ok
maybe even better than the bartenders(happens in dox only)
anyway
one of the VIPs ask me drink with him
lucky i did not drink
if not i have to work DRUNKARDLY(is there such a word?)
like that day,like Fish man

overall it was an ok day for me
hopefully everything i plan turns out fine
or dont turn out so bad la ok

im saving this bit for the last
save the best of the last,aye?
even though i was busy the whole night
but in my mind
was only 1 matter
which is you babeh
my pillar of strength
my direction in life
purpose of me living on
my love
the moon was so bright and big
i cant wait
18 more days to bangkok

2009-12-02T08:57:00.000-08:00

countdown 19 more days to bangkok
im so elated and excited
and my windows is giving me problems
i think im rebooting again
before it gives me more problems

i reeeaaallllyyyyy hope
whatever i plan will work out the way it is supposed to be
i wanna spend time there
have fun
buy alot of things
and see the nightlife
esp the ladyboys,boyboy,girlgirl,boygirl etc
singapore nightlife is SOOO boring
i wanna go to america or aussie's nightlife
confirm damn happening

and guess what?
im celebrating christmas OUTSIDE of singapore
with my LOVE one
HeHe

2009-11-30T11:58:00.000-08:00

ok eff business writing wasnt THAT bad
there was this particular question
we had to sort of change it
in relation to the 6 Cs
either
clarity,clourtesy,correctness,completeness
conciseness or concreteness
THE HOUSE IS PAINTED WHITE
so most of us would answer
THE HOUSE IS WHITE
acceptable answers to the human brain are
THE PAINTED HOUSE IS WHITE
THE HOUSE WAS PAINTED WHITE COLOUR
yunhan was the worst
THEY PAINTED THEY HOUSE WHITE
they??come on
u were there when they painted the house white is it???
but never in my mind
have any normal human beings
will put this as an answer
I PAINTED THE HOUSE WHITE
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
and whats worst
it was hui jie's answer
yes the smart ass kid in my class
then was telling everyone
next time the question comes out
only hui jie write I PAINTED THE HOUSE WHITE
while the rest of us in the level put
HUI JIE PAINTED THE HOUSE WHITE
lololololololololololololololololololololol

econs ica is at 4pm
5 chapters
ok la can make it
dear i change my blogskin
=))
can u help me remove the bar thing
that says report user,sign in,next blog,blablabla
its so irritating

oh yeah look at those girl below
ladyboys
they make us females feel so ugly
well at least im half female
HAHA

the wonders of plastic surgery
i hope it will do wonders to me too
in the future

did i tell u
how much i love u
today?
i love u alot
each and every single day
abilu.TE <3>

2009-11-29T14:53:00.000-08:00

a random picture of a limo
silvery colour
chio huh?
where?its at clark quay
like that also must take limo
BEST

i am so nervous about effective business writing
1stly
i have no idea what the format of the paper will look like
is it tough
or is it easy
but according to dr chia
he said its hard
to the extend we can fail??
F**K

2ndly
theres so much info to remember
if theres alot of definitions coming out
im dead meat

3rdly
i cant sleep well
because im worried
so i have not enough sleep
and later im working
hell good game

anyway
bangkok is 22 days away
cant wait cant wait cant wait!!!!!!!!!
here's an overdue picture of me bartending
i did not take the picture
and my hp camera quality is good
only the person that took it is lousy
haha
shall not say who

yes yes what you want to order

huh?whisky dry?OKOK

here you go.$10.90

no sir no we dont serve coffee.that cup belongs to the staff.

was offered to work elsewhere
good offer
next year im off
byebye dxo
and hello hello NEW AMAZING PLACE
more opportunities
more knowledge
better people
and better and more pay

2009-11-27T13:14:00.000-08:00

im so happy...
elated...
delighted...
im extremely happy with my pay
well
its better if i get more
humans tend to get greedy
ok shit
im happy with my pay =)
hope i get the job in orchard tower

oh yeah
im going to bangkok!
YAYNESS!!

hehehehee
yay
cant wait
finally the long awaited moment
will be commencing 1 month from today

things to do:

study for ica,no fb,no games,no tv and no porn(haha just jk la)
buy skipping rope and skip everyday
lessen the carbo and up the protein
weights training alternate days
be a good girl/boy so that mummy will let me go bangkok
drink lots of water
eat vegetables everyday
more soupsoup and nono fried food(NOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =(
study everyday???(notice the question marks)
i should sleep lesser
no more missing of lectures or tutorials...my attendance is bad enough
be more discipline in everything i do

i should stop oversleeping man
maybe i will get this.
http://bellitaslofa.blogspot.com/search/label/clocky
yeah i should recommend to stella also
we both have big problems waking up
is this the solution??hmm shal try and review it

little girl just got back from work
i woke up and missed her terribly =(
10 more hours to seeing her.......
im working tmr
and edsel bro will not be there
gonna miss him and his rubbish
and lil girl just msg me
i tink im gonna join her in bed
zZzZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

2009-11-19T11:12:00.000-08:00

did i tell u i miss u today??
yeah i miss u alotalotalot

life really sucks
especially u really look forward to something
and u work towards it
and sacrifised some things
in the end
it seems as if its unreachable
because in the end
u know u have to give it up
S-U-C-K-S

is it true?
i hope so
im holding on
cause i really want it so much

i wrote ur name on the sand
but the waves wash it away
then i wrote ur name on the sky
but the wind blew it away
so i wrote ur name in my heart
and thats where it will stay,always

i just hope in the future
our fish tank will break
and we will be able to swim together
in a bigger fish tank
and together we will work hard
and suffocate out of water
to go into the sea
get the picture?
:'-(

i wish not

2009-11-15T12:33:00.000-08:00

i miss YOU

i wish i can go with u everywhere
even if its hiding inside your tissue bag
i wish i can be the richest man
so that i can take u to see the world
i wish i can be living in the same house as you
and then we can share and love and talk and fight and care
but then
all the wishes i wish are not within my reach
so i'll just stay here
right infront of the computer
and miss you and miss you
and patiently wait till the next day where i can see u again
because i know
if i were reach or invisible or wish some other thing
you wont love me the same way as ur loving me now
and i wont jeapardize this sitaution for anything
because i love the way u love me right now

hari raya

2009-09-19T12:06:00.000-07:00

usually i would be elatd
in high spirits
that hari raya is here
but this year is an exception
i dont even want to celebrate it at all
dunno why i have no mood for it at all
and the economy is down
so guess i wont be getting so much money
and plus im older and half working
but it doesnt matter anyway

i just wanna enjoy while i can
once sch starts
its back to juggling work and studies
and i'll be tired
and coffee and red bull will be my close friends
and lesser time with babeh =(

oh yes
promised my classmates i'll go drinking with them
after f1 ok?cause im damn busy during f1 baby
jt is pestering for seafood
alright jt we all will go seafood at bugis alright?
usual bunch of crazy shits
bridget
stella
hui jie
jt
me
haha
oh i almost forgot
lets make hui jie drunk ok? LOL
clubbing next time ok guys?
andddddddd
when are we gonna play l4d again?
i mean the usual 4 of us
not more not less

meet bridget and stella
these 2 idiots took their picture and edit without me knowing
next thing u know
my wallpaper is this
THICK SKINNED ASS

i'll miss u alot beh =(
abilu. TE<3

2009-09-17T22:38:00.000-07:00

"babeh do u like it?"
"hehe yes"
"is it ugly?..."
"heee yessss"

well then no wonder i love her =)

4bia

2009-09-16T05:46:00.000-07:00

watch it........if you DARE

view the trailer...if you are DARE DARE
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sy5YsWGYRoA

i just watch it
and now i dont think i can sleep for tonight
or maybe 2 nights
baby girl caught a glimpse of the movie
and she's already scared to death
i HIGHLY recommend to horror movie freaks

im at bedok macs

2009-09-15T07:05:00.000-07:00

after MIA for soooo looooooong
i wanna announce that
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Jalan kayu prata is now in dhoby ghaut
the atrium 01-16A

in my next entry i will upload all the photos that's overdue
hari raya coming soon
and so is f1
can someone just give me a job?
im free till october 18

to my nyp school mates
results will come out on 23 september,wed
according to dr chia that is

i feel like joining kickboxing after sch reopens
i need to start working out
and get THAT body

reflections

2009-08-17T10:05:00.000-07:00

been really really busy lately projects..projects..work...work..and school work
juggling between studying and working is very tough for me
i shall announce that i am GREATLY deprived of sleep
yes sleep means sleeping for more than 4 hours
because all this while i sleep an averrage of 4/5 hours a day

my POM exam is this friday
exam is here Nel
gotta push push push push push till it goes beyond the limit
i aim to get all A's for my exam
be it possible or not im gonna make it happen
im holding on babeh =)

mugging is tiring
and i get hungry when i study
especially if i study at cafes or places with food
thats why i need to go somewhere with no food
so that i wont eat and grow "muscular"
HAHAHAHAHA

gonna get my pay reaLLLLLLLL soon..
hope nothing screws up this time
after exam dear let me coma for like,2 days can?
i wanna sleep for 48 hours
my body system is dying already

alot of things happened since i last blog
especially projects, sharepoint
i dont want to mention names
people should know im a very straight forward person
i like u,i will talk to u
i dont like u,i say it straight to ur face,wont even talk to u
i dont care if the whole world doesnt like u
as long as u did nothing to me
im cool man
but once u disturb my rice bowl
thats it ur OUTTA
i express my feelings the way i want
everybody have their rights of freedom
i live my life the way i want
get my goals and career right
makes lots of friends along the way
meet new people with odd personality blablabla
i love meeting new people
i know i can be childish at times
hey!not think skinned
but if u hang around with me u'll have lots of fun
i promise HEHE =))

anyway work have been hectic
there's this new pinoy girl
that cant even speak proper english
i cant even communicate in english
i assume the management wants me to speak STONE AGE language with her
the floor crew are short of people
i dont know what the hell the manegement is doing
maybe the girls are out shopping
and the guys are busy wanking themselves or picking up girls and going to hotel for a quickie

come on man
let me suggest some solutions

1)scrape off the rubbish singers.if there are to stay,PLEASE ask them to sing new songs every weeks please.or at least 1 song can only be sung twice or thrice.NOT same song every week.for goodness sake,they are singers,not CABRET dancers.learn to sing a VARIETY of songs.whatever,i still prefer to scrape them.but the patio singer shall stay

2)i feel that as a manager of a particular club,you must know the inside out of the club.well,according to POM,which is principles of management,a manager is in charge of operating the whole club and motivating his subordinates.but from what i see,all M does is walk around,entertain customers.ok fine manager hava alot of admin right?FINE.everytime i walk into the office and M is there,all i can see on the caomputer screen is his facebook account.WOW,i guess thats admin huh?he is either playing FB or eating and drinking coffee in the office.other that that,i feel that he is useless as a manager.i cant blame him too.it all started with A.he is,after all,the overall in charge of the club.being irresponsible and passing it down to M.then M follow in his foot steps and pass it down to J.poor J have to do all the work.come on la J is so old already.i sometimes pity J.have to do all the work.J u become superviser la!this R superviser in training also no use.

3)makerting manager and marketing executive of the club PLEASE generate GOOD ideas and attract customers.come on la,all i can see them is when there's event.then,all the left over food they will take 1st and tapao before going inside the office to eat.WALAO.i feel that marketing section is very important.that is where the club can get the exposeure.aiyah i teach them la,contacts people,CONTACTS!

4)please dont make the place for a certain organisation group where only members can enjoy the privelages.and dont make it into a one-race dominated area can.attract all kind of race can.scrape all this idea we re not a commercial club.come on la,if we dont make profits,you think salaries can be generated?whether we are commercial club or not,we still need PROFIT.thats what business is for.MAXIMIZE PROFIT.the place have very good location.there's bus,mrt,taxi stand.attract youngsters like us can.we are young and willing to spend on alcohol.i am young.i can introduce to my friends.come on la,which apek wants to do party dancing or drinking can.oh yeah,please sack the DJ la.his music is the worst i ever heard, i SWEAR.and he always plays the same old music.the old must always make way for the young.

5)last but not least,have a proper planning and organizing can.you know whats organizing?is who report to who.who do what blablabla.because im telling you,the management system SUCK.improve alil bit can?AT LEAST WORK FOR YOUR SALARY.SHOW ME THAT YOU GUYS ARE WORTH OF YOUR SALARY....

works sucks la
faster promote me to a official bartender can?
i wanna learn
get the knowledge and skills
then go off to another club
with better pay and better environment

babeh i know we'll both be really busy with stuff
but just hang on to me lets study hard
i'll try to get a schlarship if i can
AIR FORCE hehehehe
u just do ur best
i know u can get distinction,seriously!
i have alot of confidence in u
just do ur best and
dont stress up or cock up or get influenced
because it YOUR BEST
i will do MY BEST
we'll be successful together ok?

i will show u i love u every single day
i will say i love u everyday of my life
i will work hard in studies and being the best female bartender
when i have enough savings i'll get a white chio Honda motorbike alright?
then i can send u anywhere anytime
even at 4am when u feel hungry and need to go SIMPANG BEDOK
i will eat supper with u
just stay by my side and i will make u the happiest woman ever lived
i wanna pamper u with bags,shades,dresses,killer heels and blablabla
just stay by my side alright?
my love for u is so strong
so strong that sometimes i feel weak
dont ask me why dont ask me how i know
i just do love u
purely,sincerely,with all my heart
because if u were to leave me
my room will be like a garbage place
my life will be in a mess and
i will drown myself in drunkardness
babeh,stay with me forever please?
and say you do =))))

2009-07-27T11:11:00.000-07:00

ok great

i got my macbook

cost me 1700 without the windows vista and microsoft office

with it,cost me over 2000

and guess what

if i order online now

it will only cost me...

1099

-_-''''''

like...

WTHHHHHHHHHHHHHH right

omg thanks uh after i bought the macbook then got discount

i could save afew hundred dollars

another problem now

gotta install the windows vista

and microsoft office

gonna cost me another bomb

and my pay is DELAYED

what is wrong with them?

if the matter still persist

im gonna bring it up to MOM

sorry guys im entitled to my pay

gonna stand up for my rights

projects are giving me a bad headache

and exams are just around the corner,

waiting to pound on me

im so tired working late at night

and i spend less time with babeh....

she gonna start sch next week

we gonna meet less often

and i'll just die halfway without u by my side =(

school faster end,exam faster come

term break faster embrace me

promise me u'll never let me go

promise me u'll hold my hand

promise me i'm ur only one

i promise that i need no one else but u,only u

2009-07-27T04:44:00.000-07:00

blogging on macbook sucks
right babeh?

2009-06-28T22:49:00.000-07:00

today i shall announce something.....................
I LOST MY MACBOOK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
curse the person that stole my macbook
may she not use the macbook
and she shall lose something valuable to her!!!!

ok.i feel much better
sian im without laptop for 2 weeks now
and my computer at home is crashed
so i have no internet access at home...
SIANNNN
everyday must go school meanwhile other people can take their own sweet time

and work have been shit
hate backstabbers man
especially if they do it to survive
oh and sorry i dont boot lick
i respect and earn the respect out of my own capabilities
thats why people like you guys cant go far

on the other hand im glad i met a good person
a good person in terms that he's willing to help me
not a good person in terms of characteristics and attitude
like i told babeh
i have a mindset of a guy
i think like a guy
i dont care about the character or attitude or personal life in this case
if he's good in whatever i need to learn about
i'll willingly learn from him
that's it simple
let's see how well he can groom me
i'll be the best female bartender
soon maybe after 4 years of experience
cant wait im so excited

baby girl is starting school soon
extra virgin oil sian
both of us will be so busy
gonna have alof of missing sessions

here i am waiting for u babeh
im hungry and frustrated and i miss u
:'( faster come to me ok? tskk tskk

2009-06-18T05:34:00.000-07:00

FATS,

I've decided to post for you to read since I'm still daggling in space and slacking before Uni starts. Right now, you must be sleeping like a Pig since you've been so deprived of beauty sleep ages ago. You're the poorest pig in the world who only sleeps 4-5 hours per day!

I shall entertain myself with blogging. I'm living such a wonderful Life( No school, no work) Boring in fact.

Dearie, I know it's the Holiday now and you've got to go back to school for projects and internet access but fret not, you've got me to accompany you in school on days where u do not meet your group for projects. I hope my presence makes you feel better in times when you get frustrated over the websites and my silly smile could make you feel comfortable in school.

Hehe, Sometimes, i think I'm the perfect soulmate for you.

I help you with whatever work you have to do for eg, before you go for oral presentation, I force you to present it to me and sadly I only gave you a B becos you're still not up to my standards yet. However, You gotten fantastic results on ur actual presentation. I'm happy and proud of you.=)

I'm always so anxious for your homework/tests and qns you every single day whether you have done or studied before letting you go to bed. Ok, I sound more like a mother but really, both of us know how important your studies are.

I know I'm very domineering and a person who sets high standards for someone/myself hence i hope you don't feel so pressurised by me becos this is really a stubborn characteristic of mine that wouldnt change. I'm awed and envious of really successful people in life and strive to become like one in future. This is also another part of me that my family says that I'm too ambitious so I hope I won't affect you and you do not need to become one so that I would look up to you.

Becos, In my eyes, you're great Fatty. Being able to cope with many distractions/work/studies/netball and juggle with me and worse, feeling obliged to raise up to my insanely high expectations. i think it's already alot for one to cope. So ignore whatever I say next time that could lead you to stress ok? Perhaps i'm too overly concerned with whatever you have on hand.

Fats, for the remaining one week holiday, finish your projects, study whatever you can and also enjoy small breaks in between so that you have a balance of both work and fun.

I know workload is taking a toll on your body but see it in a different view, that you've gone through the worst in JC.

I've gone through as much as you or rather completed my tertiary education, I know that in terms of study, it's never easy. So just do your best and tell me whatever you feel (be it happy, sad, stressed) and don't keep them in your heart. Share with me, so that I know how to handle. When you're sad, i'll do something to make you smile. I can smile like an idiot, buy you jellybeans, let you act like baby boy for once. hehe. When you're happy, I wanna be the first to know and say things like. Yay, my babeh so smart.

I love you the way you are and not loving you on how capable you are. Whether or not you succeed, I'll still love you no lesser.

Remember our upcoming Food tour? Genting trip you promised me since beginning of the year. Look forward to them. Baby girl also want a BBQ with you so that we can sit down at the seaside to enjoy the night breeze together and talk to Mr Moon like how we used to.

Baby Girl wants Fatty to bring me to alot of places with Food. Chili crab, tim sum , sushi.

Play themepark, go shopping. I wanna choose alot of nice clothes for you and make you look cuter and fatter. Muaha.

And then i would do all the disgusting stuff in the world like flicking my dirt on you, coughing, sneezing on you so that you would remember me forever in your life. And make you eat all my leftovers so that I always eat alot but remain my weight while you grow fatter, then again, you would hate me and can't forget me for the rest of your life. HAHA.

Jaja, don't be too stressed in Poly ok? I know I'm damn irritating and say things like make your tertiary education fun and meaningful. I don't want you to graduate at the end of the 3rd year saying you hate Nyp but rather, I want you to say things like I had a fulfilling jouney with NYP and I'm happy with what I've attained. Don't be like babygirl ok, who didn't have a memorable time in jc.

Make good friends, have fun. You wanna play lan can, wanna go clubbing, wanna drink, wanna smoke, wanna see cute girls, wanna be a bartender can, wanna learn motorbike, buy stuff can.

Tell me before hand ok?

And also, I would be the one to get you up on your feet when you can't stand up.

You taught me many things in life that i've never known or seen. You picked me up and wiped my tears and let me wipe my mucus on your shirt. I'm grateful, touched to have found the Fat one.

Most importantly, I know you're the Right One for me.

Ps: WHY WE SO UGLY LAST TIME? WALAO

2009-06-16T09:21:00.000-07:00

went to eat dinner at fortune restaurant

suprisingly their har gaw is VERY GOOD

look at my face expression

and it is very big and juicy and worth the money

haha

im a fan of har gaw by the way

had almond jelly with longan

and mango sago for desserts

again,its very delicious

even though the bill was quite a pinch in the ass

but we had a satisfying meal didnt we babeh?

what more there was only me and babeh in the restaurant

for once i felt as though i was jun pyo and she was jandi

romantic right only we both in the restaurant

LOL

ok snap back to reality

following that went far east

shop and shop and shop

this little girl of mine bought some clothes at max and more

its the same owner as hula&co

babeh worked there last time and eventually became good friends with the owners

this couple quite young

the guy is from nus business school

and his 1st job is becoming his own boss

sayang,call them up le,ask them do us a favour and let us work part time

HEHE

love also bought this curler thing to curl her hair

.....??looks abit ah-so but the end result is quite good la

so now i want my lil girl to curl her hair everyday

i think babeh looks better with curl hair though

omg omg omg now is like singapore sale

i eyes a few things in far east that i liked

especially the shoes and berm and shirt and belt and tie and scaft and polo tees

OMG OMG and the stripped hat

sian

guess i have to wait for next pay to buy berms and shirt

and next next pay to get the scaft and shoes

and next next next pay to get the hat

lil girl,im ur man =)

2009-06-15T10:25:00.000-07:00

today wasnt a fruitful day
shit man accounts is giving me headache
fifi lifo wac etc... WTF
hui jie,i need your help! lol
ok maybe i'll try asking from my group members tmr

i am very very broke
waiting for next pay
but it seems sooooo looooooong
let me win toto la,or 4d
or let money suddenly appear in my bank or something
HAHA

im missing l4d
wen am i gonna play again
but i miss babeh more =(
sch holidays are filled with projects
speaking of projects
its stressful being a group leader
to me a group leader is more than a figurehead
efficeint effective responsible understanding and finally humble
but i guess SOME people are failures
nvm cant be bothered about some idiots

babeh,can i date u tmr? HEE
abilu. TE<3

2009-06-14T07:05:00.000-07:00

its finally holidays
ICA is over and ICA2 is coming
but looking at the amount of projects I have
i doubt i'll have a enjoyable holiday
guess i just have to make do with it

yesterday dxo was SUPER crowded
as usual,i was the cook cum patio
everytime i have to go through the dance floor
in order to pass the food orders to my colleagues
and especially yesterday
i was grinded by the crowd dunno how many times
can u imagine me carry a fragile stone plate
filled with fried stuff,thats why the food can slip out easily
then as i walk through the dance floor
people are like banging onto me
poor me trying so hard to protect the food
and there was once this woman was abit drunk and
she shook and hand and tried to make me dance
sorry Mam,i had to push you away
HAHA
oh yeah as i was cooking in the kitchen
and cursing the customers away for ordering so much food
rodney went in here how it goes

Rodney:you know lady gaga
ME:(as if i dunno)yeah why
R:lady gaga is here,she's outside
M:oh ok.(confused pause)HUH!!!lady gaga?!?!she's here in dxo?where?
R:yeah she wear big specs and big hair
M:OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!what is she doing here?!!
R:she's from australia so she's jonathans friend.she's here to promote album
M:OMG!!!rodney u wait here i go out first

and so i rushed to x2 and i found her sitting on the table
with 2 other lovely ladies.i was like
...AHHH!!!lady gaga is infront of me!
HAHA
so i walked past her 2 or 3 times,making sure that i'm not hallucinating or anything
i went back to the kitchen and rushed my orders
after that when i went out again
lady gaga was no longer in sight
so i thought she might be outside
outside,i see no lady gaga
dissappointed i asked babeh

babeh where is lady gaga
lady gaga?who is lady gaga?
HAHAHAHA.omg you dunno who is lady gaga?!!!
no i dunno.hamzah say she sell vegetables
she's an artist la dear.very popular

LOL
my baby girl is the cutest and coolest
she's different from the rest
i still love you la babeh
even though you dunno whos lady gaga
but u know now right =)

hamzah went out and walked past me
and he said
eh u got see lady gaga not,i took picture with her
i was sooooo sad la she went home before taking pictures with me
HAHA
but still
ok la whatever
lady gaga is nothing to me
but babeh is everything to me =))

and if u ever ask me
what she looks like in real life
i'll say...she looks like any aussie chicks la
yup pretty and nice complexion
but one things is shes humble
she doesnt go around announcing that she's lady gaga
she doesnt even have any body guards or security
only 2 other chicks beside accompanying her
her shades were so big that is she were to walk around singapore
no one will know shes lady gaga
no one would have ever though lady gaga will even step into dxo
and no one would ever thought i would see lady gaga with my own eyes
i respect her for her music and style
U GO GIRL

2009-06-08T08:24:00.000-07:00

look at her.
LOOK at her.HAHA
i want her body man
i especially want those muscles
its not too big for me
i like it
SIAN
no fried food.
lesser carbo.
more protein.
more cardio.
more intensive weights.
more water water water.
muscles here i come =)

L4D

2009-06-04T09:40:00.000-07:00

html lesson was only 3 hours
thats all for the day
but still i was late
so i went to sch for less than 3 hours
since i was late
the least i could do was pay attention and keep quiet
yeah i did that
tan ban seng said something about me?
like he say he will look at me if i nod means i understand and he can go on
if i dont he will slow down and repeat again?
and i was like "...ok" giving the blank expression look
i dunno how to react so i just kept quiet
after that the least i could do was to do his work right
and i completed on time
and he said not bad because i missed out like ALOT
BUT i can produce results like that
UBER HAPPY man

after that

played L4D with jt,bridget,stella and stella's friend called fweeeen
at dhoby ghaut
damn funny i swear
we all took turns to die
but i think our team work was good YUP
jt lead us along with stella
bridget was the aggresive one
and im always the back one
so thats why i always kena dragged by the smoker
oh yeah
there was once left only me and stella
some idiot zombie jump onto her
and i tried to save her but the smoker pulled me
in the end we all died
HAHA funny right?
jt's girlfriend came and shortly after babeh came too
=))))))
thank you for coming and accompanying me play LAN
i know you dont really like it but
i know you love watching the zombies right
so next time
lets play together ok?
left around 5pm while they were still playing
HAHA

ate at hong kong cafe
then went to macs to study stats
while baby girl plays neopets
u so cute la dear heee

babeh,you look really gorgeous today =)
i think you're getting more gorgeous as the day pass by
stay gorgeous ok?
the thought of seeing you tmr......
=) no words needed,my eyes and smile shows it all =)

2009-06-02T08:13:00.000-07:00

today i miss babeh alotalotalot
skipped netball just to go gym with her
it was packed
after cardio and machine
went to the weights section
love it when the guys stare
especially when i lifted a 15kg weight in total
all the eyes will be on me
the moment i lift the weight
maybe secretly in their heart they dont think i can do it
but too bad BIG BOYS
im good =)
then there was this guy beside me
he lifted only 10kg in total
and in the end
stare at me and
put the weights back to do the machine
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA
baby girl did weights too
her arm is toning up soon
abit more to go ok lil girl?
i still got alot to go
miles and miles of hard work is gonna pay

MEANWHILE

here is a collage of me and baby girl

BABEH SMILING FOR ME

SEC SCH GIRL>CUTE RIGHT HEHE

TIMES SPENT CAMWHORING

CAUSE U BRING OUT MORE THAN THE BEST IN ME

AT J.CO

I SHALL EAT U UP AND U SHALL BE MINE FOREVER

EVEN IF U WERE TO GIVE ME THE WORLD I WONT WANT IT CAUSE UR MY WORLD

WITH U,I CAN BE MYSELF

IN MY EYES,UR PERFECT

SEE WHAT U'VE DONE.U.. MAKE ME SMILE LIKE AN IDIOT

MY FAV PIC
THANK YOU FOR LOVING ME
FOR STEALING MY HEART
AND BEING THERE FOR ME
EVEN THOUGH I AM AN IDIOT AT TIMES
TAKING MY HANDS,WALKING DOWN THE ROAD WITH ME
GIVING ME HOPE AND FILL ME WITH UNCONDITIONAL LOVE
MAKING ME FEEL WEAK AND STRONG AT SAME TIME
FOR THAT,NO WORDS CAN EVER DESCRIBE
THATS WHY SOMETIMES
MY EYES WILL DO THE TALKING

AND SINCE U'VE SHOWN ME HOW TO LOVE
AND CARE
I WILL SHOW U THE LOVE U'VE GIVEN ME
HOW STRONG I FEEL
SOMETIMES I JUST WISH U WERE A MINIATURE
ABLE TO FOLLOW ME WHEREVER I GO
IF I MISS U,ALL I HAVE TO DO IS PEEP AT MY SHIRT POCKET
SO THAT WE WILL NEVER BE SEPARATED
WE WILL BE TOGETHER FOREVER
BUT SOMETIMES I JUST WANNA PUSH U AWAY
AS FAR AS ONE END OF GALAXY TO THE OTHER END
I JUST WANNA HURT YOU AND MAKE U RUN AWAY FROM ME
BUT NO.I WONT DO THAT ANYMORE NOW
ALL I WILL DO IS....
TO SHOW U HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU BABEH
abilu. TE<3

This love is unbreakable
It's unmistakable
And each time I look in your eyes
I know why
This love is untouchable
A feeling my heart just can't deny
Each time I look in your eyes, oh baby
I know why
This love is unbreakable

2009-05-25T08:30:00.000-07:00

friday and saturday rivermaya was down
the crowd was crazy
i was more crazy because of the orders
phillipinos like to eat when they drink,according to rod and eds
apearently i am more than happy to agree with them
dxo combo,sotong ball set and mexican wings set was on item 86
but the oreders kept coming
wedges.hotdog.chicken nuggets.tempura fish.tofu.
i think im very efficient in cooking
even though i rush the orders the presentation is nice
and the taste is nice too
ok i know babeh is rolling my her eyes,saying "whatever"
but babeh i like to cook sotong ball and mexican wings for you
HEEHEE
rivermaya is totally PHOTOGENIC
look at them
but cant deny they rock la
thir songs are nice
i've been a neutral fans of theirs
ever since their album was released in sg a few years ago

and nowadays

transport home is Taxi

YAYY!

babeh and i,we are both damn happy about it

no longer have to depend on the stupid uncle

call himself a driver

yet doesnt know his route well

since im the last in the cab

im always home at 5plus

who cares

i like the job,i like the people there

except for ONE particular person

OMG i tell you

dxo is so PEACEFUL without HIM

right babeh?HAHA

when my pay comes i wanna go and cut my hair

maybe like this?yunho's hairstyle

but maybe not

i think i wanna cut kim bim's hairstyle

it will suit me better dont you think so?

it's nicer than yunho anyway

after staring at it for 5 minutes

anyway

tmr is my turn to do the oral presentation

im all set and ready

with my props and speech and enthusiasm
babeh i'll do my best ok?
your effort won't go down the drain

shit im supposed to be sleeping now

babeh will kill me if she knows im blogging

dont angry ok dear?

abilu. TE <3

2009-05-21T11:10:00.000-07:00

2009-05-17T11:01:00.001-07:00

Hello=)
Readers of Nels.
She's a busy person and hence I'll do the updating for her during this weekends.

Thurs Nels had her second netball trial and she got into netball.
She used to be a good player and was talented spotted by NSL before.
However she broke her leg and hand abt 6 mths ago and lost touch with Netball since then.
Hence, it means starting all over again for her right now.
Not to worry, she's very passionate about it and has the zeal to return to whom she was in the past.

Friday Night was working at the club=))
The club had 3 events and ended approximately at 5.30am.
Nels was given a walkie talkie in the club so that she would be informed of anything happening.
Hamz, the head bartender said she looked like our bouncer. Laughs.
Nels had a couple of glasses of Smirnoff Vodka and Jim Beam.
That Naughty boy.

Sunday was Party party=))
Everyone was down. The Floor, the bartenders and supervisors.
Nels the naughty boy had quite abit of Bombay sapphire.
Just in case her readers need clarifications.
Bombay is a type of premium Gin.
For me, it has a sweeter and smoother taste than Normal Gin (Beefeater, Gordon) that I've drank before.
What I like about Gin is that it goes well with Tonic.
And it goes well with Rootbeer surprisingly cos we mixed it ourselves. Haha!
It's 57% Alcoholic and it's blue in colour, Nels's fav colour. So pretty.

Anyhow, we didn't go for any beer cos it was already late at Night and that boy has school tomorrow. I dislike Tiger, only would go for Heineken or Anchor. Haha.

Goodnight readers.

2009-05-13T11:30:00.000-07:00

I know that the time spent together will be lesser.
But no matter how tough it is, It's for the sake of your future.
So just hang on, hang on to me, hang on to our trust.
The love is so strong.

On the other hand, I'll miss ya on Thurs.
I'm working in the club alone again and it feels less vibrant without you.
know that you'll be having netball trial.
So do your best in Netball. Shine for me, shine for yourself.

I love you darling.
I'm happy to see you putting in effort in many things.
I promise to let you drink all the alcohol on Sunday's party.
Your reward=) Haha.

the unwritten law

2009-05-11T08:07:00.000-07:00

i find blogging a waste of time
maybe its just because im not good in expressing myself on the net
but im gonna blog anyway
so that i can keep up with the society
since im taking internet and web technologies module

ever since i trained with bedok on sunday
my body only ache ache ache ache ache ache ache
especially my right leg and right arm
but bb says my muscles are becoming bigger and more visible
hehehehehhe
i like it when she says that
im gonna toned it up up up babey!
tmr is netball try out
and im really nervous
its not that i have no confidence
just that im worried i cant run
and there are better players than me
i really want to go in sooooooooo bad
i know im aiming for the sky
but i hope to be the captain and let my team to glory
come on leg,be strong for me please?
just give me your best tomorrow
and everything will fall into pieces

studies so far havent been easy too
especially accounts
i catch little balls on that module
but so far,its manageable

times are getting harder and harder for us bb
i wont dissappoint you,be it in studies,netball
or being a better person for you
i know you've done alot for me,maybe too much
no one can ever imagine
no amount of words can describe
i thank you
for being there for me
loving me the way i am
fogiving me time and again
thank you for everything
for you are my ray of hope
my pillar of support
and my source of strength
i hope to have a bright future with you
i wanna make you happy
i wanna make you smile
i wanna make you feel loved
i wanna shower you with gifts,words,luxuries
i wanna give you the world
i know im capable of alot of things
lets just take one step at a time
just take my hand and look into my eyes and i'll lead the way
bb,together we can make it
abilu. TE<3

Distracted and Tired

2009-04-29T18:20:00.000-07:00

having econs tutorial
the skies outside are dark
the weather cold
but i drew your face on the sky
a gush of warmness
and i SMILE

2009-04-29T07:51:00.000-07:00

Hello, this is Nel's Best Friend, posting for her as she's too busy with her homework.

Spent the day with vip.
Problems are inevitable, however we'll stay on strong.

Nels wanna tell the whole world that.

Babeh is mine
i am babeh
the world is not ours
but babeh is my world
my universe
and my university

I will continue loving u till my last breath

=))Oww. Very sweet of Nels to say that to her Loved one.

2009-04-28T00:41:00.000-07:00

My dearest Boy,
who's in school now.

I miss you.
Thank You for always being there for me, anytime, anywhere.

2009-04-27T08:33:00.000-07:00

A simple birthday celebration with the one I loved.

I'm happy.

2009-04-27T07:41:00.000-07:00

B Boy.
Groove to the beat